Breakfast: Yogurt/Chocolate Shake
Lunch: Ham and cheese on whole grain, jello, cheese stick, few bites of nasty fiber one bar, i hate caramel flavor.. best of all: no cookies! I felt SO GOOD after this lunch, although I have to admit it was really hard for me. I was so happy I did.
Dinner: I didn’t really eat dinner
Exercise: worked HARD. Since i was at the gym, i was really able to go on this crazy nice treadmill, it was so fun.. I liked it. I tried to run a 5k? the machine kept shutting off because if you pause for more than 30 seconds it assumes you’re done, so i don’t really know how far i ran, but i ran for longer periods of time and increased my speed. I was really sore afterwards, which please me immensely .
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
February 10
Gahh, today was better. i’m in pain. my back hurts. but my butt hurts. most of all, my calves burn. It hurts. I embrace the pain, though :P. Okay, i really should have gotten up early this morning, because now i’m exhausted and i just finished my homework, and I haven’t eaten yet. so even if i do make it downstairs to the basement to work out, i’m only doing nike training, not running 20 mintues straight. Sigh
What I ate today:
Breakfast was fat free yogurt. Yum.
Lunch was grapes, a pear...and two cookies. I tried. really, i did. but i’ll do better!
Dinner hasn’t been made up, wait for update!
Dinner: I tried an english muffin witha pple butter, it was just okay. so i made tilapia with whole grain pasta
Didn’t make it down to exercise, fell asleep early
What I ate today:
Breakfast was fat free yogurt. Yum.
Lunch was grapes, a pear...and two cookies. I tried. really, i did. but i’ll do better!
Dinner hasn’t been made up, wait for update!
Dinner: I tried an english muffin witha pple butter, it was just okay. so i made tilapia with whole grain pasta
Didn’t make it down to exercise, fell asleep early
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
February 9
I’m scared, I really am. Today, I ate four cookies. not to mention those little lemon ones. and i had a bowl of rice krispies. I don’t know what’s happening, but I want it to stop.. I have go tto work hard. well, at least I know i’ll run hard today. the harder i run and the longer, the more the weight will fall off. seriously, it’s going to fall, because i’m so fat. so it shouldn’t take too long for results..
-What I ate today:
-Cheese stick, pear: that’s a good enough breakfast, i’d say
-Four cookies, bleh. And a pear. : see above
-Rice Krispies: much smaller bowl than usual, much less sugar, and didn’t gorge. Also didn’t feel the usual inherent relief that comes from stuffing cereal in my mouth, good sign i’d say.
-Whole grain pasta with crushed tomatoes and ground turkey red sauce. Yum! Delicious.
Workout time!
Finally! A good workout! My couch to 5k program for today was the usual 5 minute warmup, 8 minute run, 5 minute walk, and another 8 minute run, followed by the 5 minute cool down that i never do. At first I was going to do yesterday’s program, because um, 8 minute long run? Who was i kidding? But then i remembered... i like to run, to jog, and 8 minutes is nothing. My 5k is going to be 35 minutes hopefullly, and that’s more than 4 times as long. I can do 8 minutes. and i DID IT. that last 8 minutes was hard, i tried to walk at the same pace on the treadmill, held on to the bars, but i DID IT. and i felt so good! that is, until i got to my nike training workout program from yesterday. yesterday i couldn’t even finish. it kicked my ass! so i had to do it hard, you know? and Yeah, i messed up a lot of things, and couldn’t do every single exercise for every time period, but i gave it my effort, and it paid off, because i felt the burn. today, i was finally working up a really rank, nasty sweat, which i suppose isn’t nice sounding, but it made me feel really good. and after working out, it really makes me want to eat a healthier breakfast. so that was good. lol. Okay, going to shower and make dinner.
-What I ate today:
-Cheese stick, pear: that’s a good enough breakfast, i’d say
-Four cookies, bleh. And a pear. : see above
-Rice Krispies: much smaller bowl than usual, much less sugar, and didn’t gorge. Also didn’t feel the usual inherent relief that comes from stuffing cereal in my mouth, good sign i’d say.
-Whole grain pasta with crushed tomatoes and ground turkey red sauce. Yum! Delicious.
Workout time!
Finally! A good workout! My couch to 5k program for today was the usual 5 minute warmup, 8 minute run, 5 minute walk, and another 8 minute run, followed by the 5 minute cool down that i never do. At first I was going to do yesterday’s program, because um, 8 minute long run? Who was i kidding? But then i remembered... i like to run, to jog, and 8 minutes is nothing. My 5k is going to be 35 minutes hopefullly, and that’s more than 4 times as long. I can do 8 minutes. and i DID IT. that last 8 minutes was hard, i tried to walk at the same pace on the treadmill, held on to the bars, but i DID IT. and i felt so good! that is, until i got to my nike training workout program from yesterday. yesterday i couldn’t even finish. it kicked my ass! so i had to do it hard, you know? and Yeah, i messed up a lot of things, and couldn’t do every single exercise for every time period, but i gave it my effort, and it paid off, because i felt the burn. today, i was finally working up a really rank, nasty sweat, which i suppose isn’t nice sounding, but it made me feel really good. and after working out, it really makes me want to eat a healthier breakfast. so that was good. lol. Okay, going to shower and make dinner.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
February 8
I HAVE HAVE HAVE to lost 20 pounds by April 1. I HAVE TO. Okay. that’s a little less than two months. So it’s time to up the ante. TWO WORKOUTS A DAY. And none of this louisiana cake shit. none of this cereal, or butter, or milk, or anytihng like that that I KNOW i shouldn’t eat. And finally, i’m doing this for me. Because I DESERVE TO GO TO COLLEGE. Seriously. i fucking deserve it. I deserve to go out, and drink, and study and make life lasting friendships, and do all nighters, and be incredibly successful and pretty. and if to do that, I have to show a little fucking organization, and lose some weight that i hate anyways? It’s getting done. It’s getting done, pronto. So, let’s see what this week has in store for me, shall we? just to show you how far I have to go, even though i’m trying to diet, i’ll give you my food list for today:
-breakfast: yogurt, peach
-Lunch: slice of pizza, two cookies, cranberry juice. where the FUCK do i get off drinking juice? full of sugar and high fructose corn syrup? and eating those sugar cookies.. jesus christ. and pizza? really? pizza? No deal
-Dinner: whole grain pasta with shrimp and herbed parmesan cheese. Better, much, much better.
Okay, workout time!
Just finished work out. WHOO BUDDY. that was a rough one. i can’t tell you how ashamed I was after I was doing my Nike workout and I COULDN’T DO some of the things! Seriously? I’m like the queen of ab and thigh work outs. Where am I? who is this person, with the huge, sticking out stomach, the jiggly fat thighs, the back fat? Seriously. Ew, back fat. Where’s Kara? It’s really sort of scary. Because this is a nightmare. Living in this unhealthy body, with its unhealthy urges and jiggles and jerks... this is scary, it’s my nightmare. Turning in to my aunts, or my mother, turning into someone that Kara Michelle Sims, dreamer and lover of success and beautiful bodies would be so ashamed of. If I were to meet myself four years ago, when I was 14... I would be so surprised, and ashamed... so upset at my failure.. So I have to keep going. Not for my mom, or the world, or for Quadis, or for my friends.. but for that innocent girl. The Kara of 2007, who believed she could do anything.. and that was true. Just because I’m not going to Harvard next year doesn’t mean I’m not successful. Yeah, me and Shawon are over... but that doesn’t change me, me fundamentally. This weight won’t hold me back...because it’s going. So... onto rewards. For this 20 pounds, what do I want? Well, let’s see... I have an ipod, an iphone, a macbook... everything I want. So.. how about that little black dress? Instead of getting it now... i might get it then. Then again, I should get something that I can wear NOW. That will make me feel good NOW. So I will go to Deb and pick something out, that I get to have. yay! This is going to be a struggle.. but I’m not alone. I have people all around me who are exercising, eating correctly, doing the right things.. and I can do it too.
-breakfast: yogurt, peach
-Lunch: slice of pizza, two cookies, cranberry juice. where the FUCK do i get off drinking juice? full of sugar and high fructose corn syrup? and eating those sugar cookies.. jesus christ. and pizza? really? pizza? No deal
-Dinner: whole grain pasta with shrimp and herbed parmesan cheese. Better, much, much better.
Okay, workout time!
Just finished work out. WHOO BUDDY. that was a rough one. i can’t tell you how ashamed I was after I was doing my Nike workout and I COULDN’T DO some of the things! Seriously? I’m like the queen of ab and thigh work outs. Where am I? who is this person, with the huge, sticking out stomach, the jiggly fat thighs, the back fat? Seriously. Ew, back fat. Where’s Kara? It’s really sort of scary. Because this is a nightmare. Living in this unhealthy body, with its unhealthy urges and jiggles and jerks... this is scary, it’s my nightmare. Turning in to my aunts, or my mother, turning into someone that Kara Michelle Sims, dreamer and lover of success and beautiful bodies would be so ashamed of. If I were to meet myself four years ago, when I was 14... I would be so surprised, and ashamed... so upset at my failure.. So I have to keep going. Not for my mom, or the world, or for Quadis, or for my friends.. but for that innocent girl. The Kara of 2007, who believed she could do anything.. and that was true. Just because I’m not going to Harvard next year doesn’t mean I’m not successful. Yeah, me and Shawon are over... but that doesn’t change me, me fundamentally. This weight won’t hold me back...because it’s going. So... onto rewards. For this 20 pounds, what do I want? Well, let’s see... I have an ipod, an iphone, a macbook... everything I want. So.. how about that little black dress? Instead of getting it now... i might get it then. Then again, I should get something that I can wear NOW. That will make me feel good NOW. So I will go to Deb and pick something out, that I get to have. yay! This is going to be a struggle.. but I’m not alone. I have people all around me who are exercising, eating correctly, doing the right things.. and I can do it too.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
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